Everything

 "My story ended here but yours goes on

Owning you just one last mile"

- BUBBLE TEA AND CIGARETTES

1. I'm no longer on the wining side. 

2. I do not know who will read this, but things have changed so much. The owner of this blog is no longer the same person as the readers might know - perhaps, they never knew at all. 

3. Right when I have the slight touch of happiness as if the Heaven opens up and shines its colours straight onto my skin and soul, I walk out of my room like a dead man by the evening. I can't feel anything anymore - or maybe I do but I ignore its name.

4. I do not know what I long for anymore. I do not know if I can ever dream again.

5. I kept telling myself things will get better. Truth is, I've been defeated all over again until I start to not only lose things, but everything. All I'm noticing is I'm slowly fading in my own thoughts.

6. How things could've been different. Just ...